Sunday, February 28, 2010

February Dream Board

My February Dream Board

What stands out first to me is that I put "let your story unfold..." on my last Dreamboard as well. What does that mean? I think I feel like I have a story that is worth telling. That my truth is bubbling to the story wanting to be set free.

The other things that stand out for me is the wish for magic/goddess and the desire to feed/care for myself. I want magic in my life, I want to know the spirit, I want to be inspired. I also want to learn how to care for myself in a gentle and healthy way. I want to make friends with food and with my body. 

My birthday is coming up and I am aware that I will be a year older. I don't remember this awareness in past years. I am aware that my body is a victim of how I treat it and that it will not forgive my sins forever. I struggle to sustain healthy choices. I feel more connected to my physical self and to my morality than ever before. I hope this awareness can help me to move into caring for myself in new ways.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Wishcasting -- 2/24

What do you wish to give yourself permission for?

i have no idea how to answer this. makes me think i need to give myself permission to find the answer.  makes me think of this...

...I would like to beg you dear Sir, as well as I can, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.
Rainer Maria Rilke, 1903
in Letters to a Young Poet

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Wishcasting -- 2/17/10

Where do you wish to make a difference?

 I know that by going to work each day that I am making a difference. I am confident that I have touched thousands of families. I love that I have found a job and a passion that allows me this opportunity.

This wishcasting made me wonder if there was something else I feel called to do. I don't think so. I feel fulfilled by my job and love that I touch lives everyday. The question that I have been pondering is how do I sustain myself in order to keep doing this work. The work is hard, it is stressful, it is easy to become depleted. I don't want to burnout. I don't want to end up in just a job, sitting at a desk. I know that I need to be vigilant about my self care, about how I am filling myself up to enable me to keep doing what I am doing. How do I stay fresh? Present? Passionate? and Joyful?

I don't know the answer. I am trying to plan regular days off. Trying to maintain a regular yoga practice. Eating right. Finding a way to stay connected to that which is larger than all of us. It is not easy. I try to remind myself that I chose gentle as my word for the year. So I can be gentle with myself for not having the answers. Be gentle with myself for having ice cream for dinner. Being gentle for myself when I feel frustrated with a kid's behavior. Finding love for myself so I can show love for others.