Wednesday, January 6, 2010

The Doubts

So, I am visited by The Doubts every so often. This family comes and creates some chaos for me. This week has been the week that The Doubts are in town. The Doubts consist of "I don't know what I am doing", "I'm never going to know what I am doing", "Everyone probably knows I don't know what I am doing", "I must be a big joke since I don't know what I'm doing", "I must be a terrible person since I don't know what I am doing".....the list could go on and on. What results is lots of anxiety, self doubt, and ick. Up until this week, I think that this felt like this was me, The Doubts were part of me. But this week, I understood things differently. I understood that this was a temporary thing, that The Doubts were just visiting and would leave. That The Doubts don't define me, don't really even know me. I am so much more than The Doubts.

Wishcasting -- 1/6

What dream do you wish to explore?

 to discover and explore big love in a way that will change me. 

Friday, January 1, 2010

Dear 2010

Welcome 2010. You are ushered in by football, naps, and frigid air.

2010, help me to be connected to hope and love.
          2010, I want you to be a year of joy, unfettered by the usual darkness.
                    2010, I also want you to be a year of community.
                              2010, push me to health and wellness.
                                        2010, support me in my pursuit of myself.
                                                  2010, I am grateful to be here to welcome you.

An interesting queston and great mantra

Can I name one of my own inner contradictions?

current mantra: be awake