Sunday, May 30, 2010

May Dreamboard

This is my first dreamboard that I don't totally understand. I see my desire for beauty, trust, and transformation. The keys puzzle me a bit. What do they unlock? Why is it locked in the first place? So many things to hold and consider. I am loving the questions and being patience with all that I don't know. I embrace the not-knowing.

Saturday, May 15, 2010

New Adventure

I got a new camera. A fancy DSLR camera. Truth? I have no idea how to use it. I mean, I can shoot in auto mode, but anything beyond that I'm lost. I am excited by this. A chance to be a beginner. So often, I feel pressure to be good, to be the best, to be flawless. This pressure is exhausting, but also oppressive. It does not allow things to live, to expand, and to transform. So, I'm a beginner. I am hoping that the practice of being a photography beginner will help me to generalize the "beginner mind" to other parts of my life. I read somewhere, "expectations are disappointments in disguise". Anne Lamott says, "expectations are resentments under construction". Being a beginner is, in part, managing expectations. Being a beginner means that mistakes are going to happen, are normal, and part of the process. Being a beginner means trusting and respecting the process.

A couple pics taken from my beginner place:

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Wishcasting Wednesday -- 5/12/10

What do you wish to experince?

In the style of Magpie Girl, I am here is my *8 things list of what I wish to experience:

1. Italy
2. radical self love and acceptance
3. boundless creativity
4. living in a single family home
5. my own competence
6. full engagement in a (UU) faith community
7. regular meditation/yoga practice and a silent yoga retreat
8. knowing how to feed myself healthy and nourishing food